dear diary,
Monday, January 31
I’ve been very inspired by these sites I found out earlier. Here are the sites I wanna share with you so you can visit them too.
Just click the title below to easily view their sites:
SUPERLUWI <-- amazed …. No I mean really amazed! As in sobrang amazed! Ganda ng earthquake effects nya and the organized galleries and especially the design of his blog. He won the 7th Philippine Web Awards and 2004 People’s Choice .. no wonder why! Yeah keep it up! Salute to all Filipinos!
PHILIPPINE BLOG AWARDS 2004 <-- here you can see all the winners and finalists of the best blog site, best blogger, and most informative blog site. You will be inspired also like what they did to me.
KWENTONG TAMBAY <-- If you’re a funny person or gusto mo ng mga jokes or read some story that happens in our everyday life, well I suggest you click this site . Maaaliw ka dito…pinoy style talaga!
More to come…..on my next visit….dami ko na nakitang educational, interesting and entertaining sites kaso lang I easily forgot those sites so next time I’ll just post it so I won’t forget.
4:26 AM
the scent still lingers
Sunday, January 30
January 28, 2005
Today is a wonderful day! Why? Ahaha...be ready cos this will be a very long entry.Besides from today is Nick's birthday, well I saw Mark again after so long years! Who's Mark? I'll tell you who he is...but first let me tell you what happened...
Two of my friends and I met at school to claim my diploma, after gettin' it, were supposed to go chat around first then go home. But to our surprise, we saw Mark accidentally! Gosh! Couldn't believe our eyes, is it really him?!? Pero sya nga! Pagkatapos mahigit isang taon, I saw him again! We were wondering before what happened to him.
FYI, Mark was my ultimate crush since my first year college. Were on the same course back then, kaso lang he shifted to another course on our third year, di na nakayanan ang sakit ng ulo eh. Kung sa bagay, nakakatuyo naman talaga ng utak ang accounting! Kaya nga nung mga first year pa kami marami pang mga gwapo sa course namin tapos after a year konti-konti na silang nawawala....kasi di na kaya ang magpakanerd! *Oi di ako nerd ah, tibay ng loob at matinding dasal lang kung bakit ako nakagraduate sa course na yon* Syempre yung mga gwapo, paporma lang ng paporma, di sila uubra sa course namin kasi sa min mawawalan ka ng time magpagwapo! *buti nalang me and my barkadas find time to maintain our beauties..hehe* Well eto lang maipagmamalaki ko, sa buong floor ng accountancy, pag may nakita kang maganda dun, barkada namin yun. Imagine? Kasi nga mostly ang mga tao dun wala ng ibang ginawa kundi ang mag-aral at bitbit ang mga makakapal na libro ng accounting o di kaya law o minsan ang mga worksheet naming pagkalapad-lapad! At di mawawala syempre ang calculator! Oi di uso samin ang scientific noh! Kung malaki ang mga numbers ng calculator mo, mas ok yun! Mas malaki ang chance na papasa ka! Why? Kasi sa exam kelangan mabilis ka magpipipindot sa calculator dahil di mo mamamalayan na time na pala! Ganun kahirap! Pero hindi naman sa lahat ng oras, ang hawak namin eh face powder at make-ups. Syempre nag-aaral din kami! In fact CPA na ang ibang kabarkada ko. Ako? Hehe…diko na tinry magboard kasi sa umpisa palang wala na talaga akong interest sa course ko! Anyway, nawawala nako sa istorya ko!
Galing kami sa South Wing, after ko maclaim ung diploma ko, ayun na si Cindy, ang talas ng mata! “Si Mark oh!” Aba! Kala namin ni Gee nagpaparanoid lang, ba naman sa tagal naming di sya nakikita eh! Tingin naman kami, kaso lang nasa likod ng billboard so ung forehead lang ang kita namin, familiar ang hair! “Hmmm…tara lapitan natin” inaya ko sila. *ang lakas ng loob ng lola* Ayaw pa ni Cindy kasi nahihiya sya, eh ano ngayon diba? Wala naman kaming ginagawang masama and besides di naman sya kilala so kung may oobvious man ako yun, kasi naging classmate ko sya nung second year. *syangapala, karibal ko si Cindy dun, pero because were friends di kami yung tipong nagdadamot, we share sa mga papa! Haha! We share infos bout them* So lapit kami…Aba sya nga!!! Si MARK nga!!! Teka..teka bakit ganun may kasamang girl? At di na yung girlfriend nya dati? Aba bagong mukha na naman! Hmmmp!!!! Sino kaya to?? “Mas maganda pa yung exes nya kesa dyan ah” “Alam kaya ng girlfriend nya to? Eh pano na yung anak nila?” “Napakababaero naman neto!” Yan para kaming paparazzi sa tabi. Syempre di kami paobvious na tinitingnan namin sya! So, di muna kami umalis sa pwesto namin habang sila naman eh back and fort na palakad-lakad. So, naisip ko magfile na kami ngayon ng original copy ng TOR so we can stay longer. Yan, after we requested for some form to be filled up, we look for some place where we could sign it up. Then, Cindy kid us to stay beside them. Eh syempre ang lakas ng loob ko, so sabi ko “Tara!” Ayun, nauna na ko palapit sa inuupuan nina Mark and that girl! Nakita ko sina Gee and Cindy, aba hesitant pa. Kala nila nagbibiro ako! Then I found a sit that fit the three of us near them. I invited them to come over. So sila ang bagal maglakad na para bang ayaw akong samahan. Then ayun, napaupo ko rin sila sa tabi ko. Dedma ever ako! Hmm……kunwari di ko sila kita (si Mark and the girl) Then serious akong nagfifill-up ng form ng biglang may humablot ng paper ko! Napatingin ako sa kumuha. Shocks!!! “Oi Mark” sabay tapik sa braso nya. “Akin na yan!” Nagulat talaga ako pero syempre wag magpapaobvious at baka ako mahimatay! “Ano to?” he asked. “ Form for TOR” sabi ko. “Anong ginagawa mo dito? Di ka pa graduate?” Aba ayaw maniwalang TOR form yun so it means graduate nako! “Gaga, graduate nako noh! Eh ikaw ano ginagawa mo dito?” Ayan, naitanong ko din! “Sinasamahan ko yung kapatid kong kumuha ng entrance exam.” “Kapatid mo?” gusto ko lang i-clear. “Oo, dito sya mag-aaral!” “Ah ok!” Napangiti ako, ayun nasagot din nya ang gumugulo sa utak namin. Tapos lumapit sa kanya ulet yung kapatid nya after tumingin sa mga nadevelop na pictures. Chineck nya ata kung andun na yung pic nya. “Dun muna kami.” Sabay turo sa taas. “Sige” kahit marami pa kong gustong tanungin sa kanya.
Tapos napag-alaman ko nalang sa kapatid nya na kasal na pala sya at may anak na nga sila nung girlfriend nya…este asawa nya! Syempre tsinika ko yung kapatid nya nung magkasabay kami sa restroom. Marami pang nangyari kaso lang diko na idedetalye kasi nakakadepressed lang. Haaay…college life nga naman! Nawala na nga sya sa isip ko eh, pero nung nakita ko ulit sya ayun bumalik ulet yung mga nakaraan! Anyway, sana masaya sya. *at sana di nya to mabasa at nung sister nya….dyahe*
1:08 AM
the scent still lingers
Sunday, January 16
Done reading the Summit novel book entitled "The Breakup Diaries".
It's very inspiring, romantic and touching. It ended so well and lovely. Try reading also the other published books. Click the title above if you wanna check them out.
Here's the book's cover:
1:43 AM
the scent still lingers
Just done with the resignation letter to be pass next week. I made one for me and one for my co-officemate. Silly isn't it? But yeah I made her one cos she asked me to. Also I made a letter for my Supervisor (it's not required though). I wrote all my reasons there how I come up with my final decision after long days of consideration.
I remember how too dramatic I was when I talked to my Sup last week to have her sign my leave form. Of course she asked me why I'm filing it, then eventually I told her the real thing that I was planning to resign. She made me cry unintentionally that I can't help it but to sob. She present on me some options that will make me stay, and that made my heart melts and touched cos I saw her saying that sincerely.
I took a "week-leave" so I could think further each and every aspects to consider but still it doesn't change my mind of leaving my job. I'm planning to find job that matches my interests. Hope I can find one as soon as possible. :)
12:33 AM
the scent still lingers
Saturday, January 15
Nothin' much from me today.
Well...well...why???
I'm not at work tonight it's because I filed a leave for a week starting Monday. But unfortunately, 3 days only had been approved so meaning it will last on wednesday and have to call at the office every night for an update. Actually, I'm preparing to resign so I'll make this week for me to think and to look forward on applying for different job.
Gosh, can't believe I already wasted 1 day doing nonsense. Now, every single moment is too important for me. I should think harder cos now at my age I should have done a lot and see myself having a stable job. I don't wanna be someone who idolized "Juan Tamad".
Where will I start?
What shall I do?
Where shall I go?
...These are the question comes to my mind to start a new beginning.
Will I be successful?
Will I achieve my dreams?
Will I survive the every trial and hardship?
...These are my anxieties. I really worry every step I take.
Is it right if I do this and if I do that?
My only concern is my future and my family's future...but of course it comes to me first. How will I provide them prosperity when me myself not prepared, not set up and having no self-esteem?
How I wish I am more confident and more determine to attain all my aspiration and
how I wish I really know what I want to be and where I want to go...
2:53 AM
the scent still lingers